Requiem for Winter '19/'20

- celebrating Christmas with traditions for the first time with a big Christmas tree, lovely people, amazing food and oh so many gifts
- watching all seasons for Great British Baking Show and getting even more into baking and cooking
- taking a step into trying to solve health problems
- feeling inspired and motivated by work and incredible support of co-workers
- getting promotion
- reading A LOT
- learning to say ‘no’ and prioritize my needs of time and space
- taking on intermittent fasting
- trying out a month with no makeup and feeling pretty good about it
- celebrating New Year at my favorite bar
- trying kayaking for the first time
- learning to be kind to myself
- dancing at the holiday party like it’s good old times
- signing up for HBR and enjoying quality research reading
- hosting a dear friend from SF
- going to a tea ceremony
- dancing at The Rapture show
- growing chia seeds
- watching my nephews and niece growing up - eating cookies and walking (!)
- learning to work with a lot of new talented people
- celebrating my birthday and feeling grateful for all the magical people in my life
- going Upstate for the first time and staying at the most incredible AirBnB
- getting into a wine tasting at Woodstock
- eating some ridiculous amount of ham&cheese croissants from bakery nearby
- learning something new about friendship and how to navigate it
- thinking about P., my childhood and death
- going to Live From Here show with C. and S.
- saying farewell to dearest friends as they are starting a new chapter on the West coast
- getting bitten by a dog

short version: обнимала себя в обнимку

Requiem for Fall'19

- traveling without visa for the first time
- experiencing grief and cherishing all the sweet memories with a person who left this world
- exploring the darkest places of mind and trying to find peace with the fact that sometimes things are not under my control: death, certain decisions, people’s opinions
- singing and dancing my heart out at Bloc Party show
- stumbling upon St Pauli bar in Copenhagen
- enjoying Tivoli gardens
- taking photos of the welcoming bartenders at Gamble bar in Copenhagen
- spending three days at the cold seaside of Denmark not wearing makeup and feeling my full self
- learning about hygge
- seeing Michelle Obama
- spending time with my dear SF friends
- becoming Monster Children
- having friends visiting New York and falling in love with the city again
- cutting 6 inches of hair
- enjoying lazy evening in cozy apartment and embracing Williamsburg life
- listening to Thom Yorke performing my favorite “Harrowdown Hill” live
- carving pumpkin for the first time
- seeing my little niece walking and exploring the world
- releasing a lot of great stuff at work and continuing to grow
- getting inspiration from wonderful and supporting women at work
- falling in love with Scandinavia
- having Kanye Wasted crew re-union with singing Anyway songs in the middle of the night
- having girl time with O. and letting my soul to relax
- watching baking show and practicing Zebra cake
- seeing the works of Edward Hopper
- enjoying family time at Thanksgiving

short version: вот и лето прошло


Requiem for Summer'19

- finally making new apartment feel like home;
- enjoying new Brooklyn life with C;
- learning to have honest conversations at workplace;
- having date nights with movies, oysters and feeling the lightness;
- Friday margs:
- learning not to settle and appreciate myself;
- spending time with family and enjoying the presence of tiny little humans;
- taking a big official step in life that now opens the door for more traveling and ability to make a change;
- being inspired by a filmmaker who was so sincerely grateful that it was the best satisfaction from my work I've ever felt;
- exploring Fire Island;
- learning how to clam, eating the freshly caught and steamed ones;
- finding the perfect linen dress;
- getting a job offer from one of the biggest media companies;
- learning to figure out what exactly do I want and what is important to me;
- being brave and openly asking my mentor for advice;
- doing first ever photoshoot for friends;
- visiting my favorite Rockaway Beach;
- going on the roof to check out the sunset and being greeted by the huge kind dog which made the whole experience even better;
- celebrating Dad’s 60th birthday;
- protecting my mind from negative thoughts and panic attacks;
- not taking photos as much and feeling guilty about it;
- binge watching “13 reasons why” and discussing the suspects with Nastya;
- being buzzed on C bday and enjoying Washington Square Park performance;

short version: Half way down the cliff no way up no way back