Requiem for Spring'19

- taking 12 plane rides, 8 of which happened in the last 3 weeks;
- seeing my dearest friends and realizing HOW MUCH I miss them and how grateful I am for having them;
- struggling with insomnia, spiraling thoughts and anxiety attacks;
- sobbing during the wedding of my best friend when seeing her father walking her down the aisle;
- remembering all the good times we spend together with Ira to prepare for the best wedding toast I’ve ever written;
- showing C. where I grew up;
- eating shawarma at 2 am at Komarovka;
- being proud of my Mom for passing a tough exam;
- being grateful to my Dad, who is willing to help me at any time no matter what;
- moving out from the place where I spent my last 4 years;
- moving in with C. into an apartment of my dreams;
- having wonderful dinner night at Vikulia’s place - a time that was filled with joy and pure happiness of us being all together again;
- going to physical therapy;
- singing 6-2-6 Bedford Avenue… at the Drums concert;
- celebrating 1st birthday of my sweet baby niece;
- sewing my first ever tote bag;
- traveling to Google I/O;
- eating freshest oysters at the fish market in Catania;
- making Aperol the drink of the trip;
- meeting the sweetest Sicilian Airbnb host, who baked us pastries and told us we are young and beautiful;
- visiting hospital twice;
- getting little surprises from C.
- loosing my wallet a day before the trip and finding it in the middle of the street in a rainy Brooklyn night;
- singing to Bob Marley songs in an Uber in Mountain View;
- trying to see the dearest people at least for few minutes;
- saying a lot of goodbyes;
- listening to new Vampire Weekend album;
- sneaking in for coffee to meet with one of the best mentors;

Short version: унесет в моря мою печаль я буду здесь я буду помнить

Requiem for Winter '18/'19

- traveling to PNW and showing C. the Pacific Ocean;
- being surrounded by love of my friends from all over the world on my birthday;
- seeing my sweet baby niece for the first time, playing games with Musa and spending time with my brother and his family;
- dealing with ankle injury and consequences;
- visiting turtle hospital;
- seeing Seattle Seahawks football stadium from our AirBnB apartment;
- staying in the apartment that belongs to Seattle Hospital surgeon;
- presenting a roadmap in a meeting with leadership;
- relaxing at home during Christmas break and having friends over;
- spending the last sunset of 2018 and first sunrise of 2019 at the Pacific Ocean;
- meeting a stranger with 2 dogs whose names are Lola and Arnold and walking a block with him and getting to know funny facts about his well behaved furry friends;
- seeing Olya Stan after so many years;
- making little surprises;
- getting a response from Ed Templeton;
- spending lazy relaxing days with friends;
- riding a red Mustang in a passenger seat;
- High Line hotel surprise stay;
- suffering from allergy reaction;
- traveling to Albany and meeting C. friends;
- finding my dog alter ego - Lola the old pug;
- going through tough time at work;
- checking out Brooklyn boroughs on the weekends;
- John Maus concert;
- meeting my old coworkers and feeling inspired;
- treating myself with haircut;
- remembering how to use sewing machine;
- learning to compromise;

Short version: Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me

Requiem for Fall '18

- waking up and seeing the ocean;
- watching ocean sunsets and sunrises;
- making morning coffee for C;
- welcoming Olya in the States;
- struggling with imposter syndrome at work an dealing with things;
- randomly running into Andrew Vanwyngarden and waving ‘Hi’ to him';
- getting accepted to “Spooky Club”;
- speaking in front of the whole company;
- seeing so many shows: The Drums, DIIV, Wavves, Alwayys, Toro Y Moi;
- listening the stories about good times from Rockaway Beach locals, drinking coffee early in the morning;
- feeling so much support from family, friends, coworkers and mentors;
- seeing dozens of dolphins jumping out of water;
- seeing Hannah from Leicester and being so inspired by her story;
- dealing with random toilet flooding in friend’s apartment and with flooded neighbors;
- meeting Sadie and feeling welcomed in New Hampshire;
- having a road trip to Virginia with collaboratively made playlist;
- being at Mikey and Lauren’s wedding and feeling so happy;
- falling down and rolling my ankle;
- starting to support Surfrider Foundation;
- having regular meetings with mentor and learning new things;
- starting a very important process that will hopefully open up the world to me;
- going to Boston’s aquarium and being completely mind-blown;
- getting my first real vacuum cleaner(I am sooo grown up now);
- doing our little Black Friday tradition with my parents;
- walking a dog with Olya;
- meeting with Yana in NY and talking like we’ve seen each other yesterday and like we are us 7 years ago;
- cooking at home;
- solving one of the hardest stalking challenges;
- “camping” in the living room;
- meeting Jim Cummings;
- buying the most comfortable jeans ever and donating old ones;

Short version: All the Pinot, Pinot Grigio girls, pour your heart out